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11:48 CST
...Being social is difficult for some of us. I would include myself in that group who has a had time being social with anyone and everyone.
Some people drink and do drugs to become more social, and some people just run away from it and keep to themselves. And others slowly try to work on their social problems but do not want to do any drugs to make them more social.
I'd place my older self in the second category somewhat. I was social, but only when I was behind my computer. Recently I have been trying to work on my social problems, and my first big step is to open myself up and open up (as I am doing now). Already I have had one experience which I thought could turn out great go bad (from what I wanted) and get very complicated. I thought things could be great with us, but she turned out to be a completely different person than what I thought. I do enjoy being with her still however, and now we are casual friends again I believe.
I guess what I am trying to say is, if you open yourself up, you will get hurt at some time. However do not let the fear of it hold you back as I once did. Take your time with things and they will usually turn out good. The joy you get out of being social and going out with others is worth the pain you will have.
Life is difficult, painful, and just a bitch at times, but accept the pain wholly and move on. Moving on doesn't have to mean moving away, but moving forward in whatever direction you feel is necessary. Never stop moving forward.
And that ends my rant for now. It is now 12:02, and until next time, keep moving forward.
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